choke
yoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyo
this summer is where it's at.
turn off your tv
turn off your ac
turn off the off button in your head.
turn on your amp
turn on your stereo
why can't i relax
why can't i relax
everything is sooooooo serious to me
why can't i relax?
cause people are dying
every day
and people are lying
every day
and the world is still abused
in every way.
what if the trees could talk
what would they say
what if your house could talk
what would it say
what if your body could talk
what would it say
would it be ok?
and yo
these are thoughts
only thoughts i know
but maybe if you take the time
to see where all the dirt and grime
went in your mind
you might find
a different rhyme
come provacative?
well here i come:
your whole system is bullshit
get over it.
jesus coming?
i don't know
would you believe him?
if he showed?
or go back to the tvs
the suzy creamcheese
the me me me me me's
brother please
get down on your knees
put your face to the trees
climb up and see
the world is free
(but not to you and me)
see?
see?
see?
peace love unity respect to the following souls that i know not in theiveland right now:
S.A. Nick-O, S.A. eddiedamunch, S.A. jonny aloha, S.A. wang aka silent6212.
Plurity (peaceloveunityrespect-ity) to these people in my cleveland neighborhood:
roacho, wesley, doug funnie, sunny, patrick, blowers (matt and chris) spook, christina, david, alison, zurick (greg and david),
if i forgot you, i'm sorry.
coming next:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::-----------------------------------------}
cHOKE
today i signed the lease to my new digs
i'm paying for 6 months in advance, and it works out to......
3,045 (that's 6 months rent plus 435 for the deposit)
i'm scared.
i don't know what i'm doing, moving out and into the world.
i don't know how i'm gonna have time for everything that's important to me.
work, music, friends, family, etc.
i'm not smoking chronic at the moment, but damn i really want some.
moving out on my own, its a scary scary thing.
i don't know what the hell i'm doing, but i'm doing it anyway.
so it looks like nick-o is coming to town end of june, early july.
just so everyone knows, i'm going to atlanta for the 4th of july to see moby, outkast, paul oakenfeld, and someone else.
it's gonna be CRAAAAAAAZY.
OutKast is the SHiznit.
in case you didnt' know
so is the wu-tang clan
rza especially.
he's coming to cleveland june 24th? 26th? something like that.
david and i are so there it's not even funny.
raekwon is also coming to town, that's gonna be PHAT.
so many good shows coming up, so little time.
i'm working 40 hours a week, but i dont' know how long i can keep that up.
it just leaves so little time for music.
anyway.
I MISS EVERYONE
i miss my friends so much these days i can't even describe it.
just being with people that don't judge me based on society bullshit, but accept that i'm a human being prone to weakness.
anyway.
i'm at chez wes right now, what's known as the roj mahal.
i'll see you guys some time soon.
cHOKE
ps.
this new job is hard so far.
so much to know, remember, etc.
tell someone you know that you love them.
they need it.
honestly, i'm really really confused.
i got a job. finally.
i'm a carver at the homtown buffet restaurant in rocky river.
they're gonna pay me 6.35 an hour to cut meat for the people.
it's not the best job in the world. in fact i can think of many other jobs that are probobly better, but it's full time, it's a job, they hired me, etc etc etc.
i feel like such a disapointment to my parents lately, i can't even explain it.
i feel like i'm turning into a prick right before their eyes, and it SCARES THE HELL OUT OF ME.
oh shit. i just remembered that friday is my dad's birthday, and i have to work.
fuck. that really really really really really really really really really really really sucks
'and all of these uncertanties well certainly you will be loved, and lifted up and never learn to want of anything at all"
i've been alienating friends left and right lately.
if i've alienated you lately, i didn't mean to.
really.
well, i'm going to bed.
i hope everyone knows that they are AMAZING.
g'night
chris
life has been happening so fast lately, i can't keep track of all of it.
between the endless herb supply, the rock and roll, yard work that never works, distractions with guitar, email, tv, etc.
i don't get anything done.
but that's ok.
i dont' need to get anything done.
as far as i can tell, a day above ground is a day lived, and a day loved.
but then "society" tells me to wake up from my daydream and get a job.
i suppose it's necessary.
but that doesn't make it ok.
to me that makes it un-ok.
so i saw d-plan and enon last night.
wow.
enon was like.........d-plan, if d-plan was fronted by beck and had a little darker edge.
still, the kids dig it.
there was like, 200, 250 at this show. it was a crowd.
the plan came in attack mode, and i was pleased.
i was the kid in front of the left speaker travis was in front of, i was 4 feet away from him.
he did the robot once.
it was a great show.
i could feel the ground shaking at times.
they played "what do you want me to say" they played "you are invited" and the one with the crazy beat changes something about "fast enougth blah blah blah blah" it was good.
what else.
did the rythm room thing tonight with my buddy steve.
we're getting terebithia back together.
and some guy i jammed with was like, hey call me we'll party and jam and rock out.
shit, these are all the people i want to make music with IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER!!!!
1. nick-o
2. angus
3. fletch
4. steve
5. paris
6. john roach
7. pat
8. dzurick
shit the list goes on.....but enough.
it's all good.
i will leave the internet world tonight with some words of my own
---------4/13/01 cHOKE
i lick the inside of my lips
it turns me on
i lay back in the couch
it turns me off
i am self absorbed
i am self absorbed
i love myself more
than i did before
but i have no idea
what's in store
sometimes i feeel like i have 2 ears
the music fills my head till i almost burst
that's when my brain begs for air
to clear up the mess i've created up there
the tv is more exciting
when i turn it off
i thought i saw flowers falling from the sky
ohhh....it was only the dust on the windows
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peace to you and to your loved ones
cHOKE
may fifth 2001
today is the million marijuana march downtown.
i just remembered that.
now playing : kid a
you all should check this out
www.freetimes.com check out the story about oxycontin
i'm ok
i hope that you are ok
we are all ok
i just hope you know it
cHOKE
(blood rises to the skin) <--- written on road trip w/ dad, october of 2000
there are times when i worry about you
you're so far away from me
and i need to see your face
you're making silly choices
but you're not in a silly place
my ears are burning!
do you know they burn for you?
my eyes are shining!
do you know they shine for you?
please hold on in this crazy time
just remember you are mine
i swear to god it's gonna be fine
yeah i'm worried
you're gonna be gone when i get back
it's hard enough to not see you now
if that happens i won't know how to act
no one to tell me
how cool i am
and to shake away the blues
that we can't stand
i'm burning inside
i'm burning inside
i'm burning inside
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so i had another crazy weekend.
thank you my darling sonia for such a wonderfull time.
there's a really good david byrne article up at www.talking-heads.net
check it out.
i'd write more, but i'm tired and i need to sleep.
i will say this:
my father agreed to sell 150 shares of "sanmiena" brand stock (r)
at 30 dollars a share yielding 4500 dollars.
what i will do with the money:
1. license : cost : 200 dollars (rough inflated estimate)
2. insurance for six months : cost : between 600 and 800 dollars
3. car, specifically an 83 pontiac bonnevile broughm, white with blue interior, power everything, big v8 engine : cost : 400 dollars
4. bills (this should actually be number one) : cost: i think between 400 and 500 dollars
5. cell phone for 1 year : cost : 500 - 1000 dollars
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200 + 800 + 400 + 500 + 1000 = 2900 which leaves 1600 for ?????
probly gonna put it in the bank and sit on it for a while.
actually, i'm probly gonna get some music stuff, like cords, guitar strings, etc.
maybe get a practice space going on.
terabithia is getting back together.
only it won't be terebithia it'll be something else.
same material. only with another guitar player.
we're gonna be good. play shows. etc etc.
cHOKE is still gonna be a project.
eberwien is ALWAYS on the back of my mind.
yup yup yup.
hope your weekend was awesome.
cHOKE
aka
Chris Hoke
aka
Chester the Molester
aka
Hokey Smokey
oh i forgot. i'm smoking pot again
i gave into the peer pressure, and discovered that it really is ok.
but, it's not priority number one!!!! never again!!!!
aka
chrissy wissy
aka
eliot ness
aka
nature boy
aka
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