tired tired tired
finally gave up the dopeage.
finally. finally. finally.
i realized what my problem was.
i thought i could "save" other people.
it's true the first thing you want to do after you save yourself is save other people.
it's such a HOPELESS cause.
people save themselves. they're already saved, whether they know it or not.
no heaven.
no hell.
no judgement.
i haven't eaten meat for about 2 weeks, i guess.
wow. it's really not that hard.
you just don't eat it.
and if you feel like you're missing protein, well, there's tofu avaliable. soy.
other stuff.
still smoking cigarettes.
still drinking malt liquor.
i told the hometown that i can't carve anymore.
didn't say why. just said i couldn't.
and 40 hrs a week, NO NO NO.
i'ts too much, too much, too much.
so 30 now.
and i have an interview tomorrow at a 5 star resturaunt where my bro works now.
some japanese place, benihana.
if i land that, watch out.
serving the food to small time celebrities.
according to my friends i am a small time celebrity.
the son of a congressman.
well, whatever.
i'll make a name for myself.
i'm wondering, is it possible to become famous and influential like smashing pumpkins, like beatles, like radiohead, without giving into corporate money swindling capatilist record industry machine?
without cbs, virgin, sony, mca, dgc, etc?
so here's a few band names to throw out:
Helmstetter
cHOKE and the plurity band
tell me what you think.
i think if i do have a band i'm going to make a point of covering a song of an influential band in the standpoint of whoever is headlining, untill i'm headlining.
example:
joan of arc plays, so i cover "forget who we are"
the gloria record plays, so i cover "parking lot"
james iha plays so i cover "cherub rock"
etc etc etc.
did i mention i'm tired?
so...............................
i'm going to bed.
i love you all.
cHOKE
