some things, an update of sorts:

-i have a new monitor that is big and flat, not that 800×600 pixel labtop that is becoming a dinosaur in today’s internet-viewing experience. there’s so much room now on this website… so much more open space.

-this web journal has 3,032 comments held in queue for moderation. i have to browse through them all so i can delete the 3,031 3,032 spam messages and find the needle in the haystack. (p.s: send me an email if you want to give me a message.)

-i work three jobs, seven a.m. to midnight usually, and currently only take sunday to sleep in and take stroll in the park. but if you know me, you know i break rules and lack discipline, so yes, i still go to work late because i make pancakes for breakfast. really, i need to live in the country and heard sheep and grow vegetables. this city life of schedules, deadlines, and obligations just isn’t for me. all you naysayers and schedule-keepers will just have to keep your comments to yourself.

-a cell phone sits in my pocket most of the time and it has ruined my life. call me sometime. 7735044902.

-i miss everyone. yes, you. i’ve caused scars with careless loves and i will always live with those reminders. if you think i’ve forgotten about you, think again. i miss you. i remember my dream as a child, the one where my family is my community, and i am in love with a beautiful person and we are companions in this confusing existence of life. love is tricky and painful; it is stubborn and fights back like the weeds. but it also flourishes like the garden when you give patience and soft whispers to it’s stems and leaves, it’s soul. remind yourself to be patient.

i love you all. when i am healthy, letters will come pouring out. send me your address if it has changed.
me? pobox1357chicagoillinois60690.